True Confessions

Hi! Another week has come and gone. And I'm gonna be honest: some Saturday mornings, I have absolutely no idea what to write about. Don't get me wrong, there's a lot going on in my head. But that doesn't mean you want to hear about it! So, I'm at the computer, nearly paralyzed with the fear of boring you or you thinking I'm dumb or weird.....

I guess I can trace those feelings back to something inside of me that really cares what people think of me. We all have it, this desire for people to say we're okay. Someone gives you their stamp of approval and you can breathe easy for a bit, until you mess up and begin to doubt if you're actually an okay person or you meet someone new and have to start working for their acceptance, too. I see it in so many things I do, even in the smallest things, like what purse I carry. Sometimes, at work, I just really want my boss to tell me I make good drinks. I mean, seriously, does making a good latte make me a better person?

The whole world is looking for something to label themselves with that will make them acceptable to everybody else. It's like we have these underlying, unspoken conversations going on: "Oh, you're an athlete? Then that gives you value." "You're so pretty! I accept you!" "You're dating someone? You must be an okay person."

This is why we need a relationship with Jesus so badly! We are valuable because God made us that way. He made us in His image and He cared so deeply for us that He was willing to die for us. Nothing you can do will earn God's love. He already loves you so much. But, if you don't have a relationship with Him, you can't know that you are already loved and accepted. You don't know the very thing that gives you value...God!

I do know Jesus and He is slowly taking that desire out of me to be okay in the world's eyes. The more I know Jesus, the better I understand God's love for me and can stop trying to be validated. It's a work in progress. : )

Welp, looks like I found something to write about!